Week 43

I have started reading some of my contemporaries work lately and I have to say that I like most of it. As with the stuff I write not everything put down on paper or typed on a phone or computer is going to be a gem, but the important thing is that it was written no matter how trivial, mundane, or morose it feels or appears to yourself or anyone who reads it.

This is my place not yours, this is where I come to express myself about my life and the things that I see and feel around me. If you like reading it great if not that's great too it really doesn't matter what you like or don't like as long as I keep writing and getting it out. My world does not rotate around any one individual, I tried that and it doesn't work. I love people, some love me back and some don't, some have even gone so far as to try and hurt me with words and actions and guess what it worked, I got hurt, I tried to hide and run away but that didn't work either. I have found a place where I am comfortable and it is right here on this little telephone screen that I am tapping this out on. The rest of the world is not here right now I am alone as it should be I suppose for I have run away about as far as a person can to figure things out.

I will not intentionally hurt anyone with my actions or words although it may seem like I do. If you are reading this than you know me or want to know me so understand one thing, I love hard, if you don't want to be loved don't get involved because I will love you even if you don't love me, it's just how this works, don't try to figure it out, rationalize or analyze me, don't put me into a category or try and define me, I don't care for genres or labels and once I figure things out I will change direction and try another course because that is what life has done to me it has given me the ability to adapt to whatever circumstances it throws out, and it will throw them believe me on that one.

Another morning lying here in bed alone writing on my phone because this is what I do. I need a cup of coffee and to get up how about you?

Robert
2016

ps. this post has been rewritten from its original draft context, all profanity was removed....,I took out 3 fucks and 8 shits...not sure why, but I did. It kind of loses something without them, but it gains a little too. If you know me and try real hard you can probably figure out where they were removed. Do I look as puzzled as I feel about myself and my writing? I like using profanity to describe things, but it is not who I am, if that makes sense (or maybe it is and I am in denial). Tomorrow maybe I'll put them back, I think I left them in on IG if you follow me there. Robert